星期日, 八月 30, 2009
我花了多久的时间才能够平伏我的心情。。。。
为何你都不了解呢？？？
难道你就看不出我今天有点不一样吗？？？
难道你都看不出来我今天的情绪很不稳定吗？？？
难道你就不能把你的嘴巴给闭上吗？？？
难道你就不能不要管我的事吗？？？
CAN YOU PLEASE SHUT UP YOUR MOUTH????
我花了多久的时间才能够止住我的泪水。。。
为何你又要把我给弄哭呢？？？
你真的看不出来我今天心情很不好吗？？？
我哭了，
停了，
又哭了。。。。
在这样下去我真的怕我会疯掉。。。。
我已经花了我最大的力气去止住我的泪水，
我花了我全部的力气去平伏我的心情，
我尽了我最大的力量去治疗我心中的痛，
为何你还要将一把又一把的刀，
插进我那已经受过严重创伤的心呢？？？
我很痛，很痛。。。。
我已经没有泪水可以再流了。。。
你就不能让我好好的过完我的假期吗？？？
我笑，
你也骂。。。
我哭，
你也骂。。。
我绷着一副无所谓的脸你也骂。。。
我开口关心，
你也骂。。。。
你到底要我怎样你才可以把你那嘴巴给闭上呢？？？
就连一只一只飞来飞去的苍蝇也比你安静。。。
你就不能把你的嘴巴给我紧紧的闭上吗？？？
我已经哭得没有多余的力气和你吵。。。
我不出声不代表我赞同你，
只是我不想伤害任何一个人，
所以你最好不要得寸进尺！！！
就算你是我的长辈，
我也要开口说声，
拜托你不要再吵了！！！
很烦！！！！
拜托你闭上你的嘴巴！！！！
不要再烦我了！！！
就当我求求你，
收一收声，
好吗？？？？
我要喜，怒，哀，还是乐，
轮不到你来管。。。。
我的生活，我自己来做决定！！！！！
PLEASE....
KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!!!!
DON'T TRY TO JUDGE MY LIFE....
YOU WILL TOTALLY FAIL TO DO IT.....
SO,
JUST KEEP QUITE!!!!
标签： Katie Xue Hui's Form 4 Life
8/30/2009 07:20:00 下午
QUITE IS THE BEST WAY TO GIVE VENT THE STRESS...Today,im not in my right mind....
Something wrong with me...
Maybe the only listener not with me any more....
Maybe the school holiday end soon....
Maybe my tuition mathematics result tooooooo bad....
Maybe....Maybe.....
I also don't know why....
That kind of feeling came back already...
That kind of feeling that without any assist.....
That kind of grieved feeling....
Make me cry again....
Today,
2009/08/30
My Spirit Collapse Again....
Very Very Very Very Sad....
Nothing can do....
Enjoy the silence and start crying....
Listen to the music and start crying....
Sleep and dream and start crying....
Sometimes,
I like alone....
I like silence more than hubbub....
I can do anything that i want when it was silent....
I can think....
I can laugh....
I can smile...
I can rewind back what the teacher taught....
I can cry.....
I can shout....
I can think my tutor's face and his action...
I can think my friend's 'joke'...
I can enjoy the music....
I can think back to my childhood's life....
I can think anything...
SILENCE,IS THE BEST PRESENT FROM GOD....Because i like silence...
So now become self-abased....
I scared to see people's eyes...
[Sorry if i always escape your version]
I scared talk to people face to face....
[Sorry if i didn't answer your questions]
I scared that kind of awkward....
[Sorry if i ignore you invited]
I scared i said something that out of your imagine then you will start avoid me....
I came from a small village from Ipoh , Pusing....
Maybe you don't know that this village is full with vulgar language....
"Masuk kandang kambing mengembek , Masuk kandang kerbau menguak"....
These are their language....
I have to listen to their language...
Whan the time getting longer....
I know them....
Sorry if you listened me talking these 'language'....
Already accustom....
Very difficult to change it...
But im trying my best...
Give me some time....
Today i keep thinking about someone....
Who is the someone i can't tell....
Later very awkward when saw someone....
Very sorry if i disturbed you....
I need some comfort...
My spirit really collapse already....
Sometime i really hope can call you and start crying...
But i know that i can't do it...
So i have to control myself...
You are a very good people...
So i think i can get some experience from you....
But i not dare....
I scared....
I scared if i do like this,
You will start avoid me...
You have no any responsibility to help me....
Haiz....
Sad....
Really.....
Sad.....
QUITE,
IS THE BEST WAY
TO ESCAPE HUBBUB
2009/08/30
04:30pm
标签： Katie Xue Hui's Form 4 Life
8/30/2009 04:29:00 下午
